dramapractIce#04

seriously the practice is draining me.i feel really sleepy everytime i finish a pratice.iwas questioning myself last night, in the last few minutes of being awake. iwas thinking what is their reason/goal for this dance and all- "We are doing all this for the glory of God" but me, well, im just in for the fun, fame and yingqi.she begged me that time when they were lack of members. funny. its ironic how i slowly see the 'fun' surfaces when i am actually in this thing. its pathetic. during pratice breaks, its just usually me sitting there beside them, daydreaming or just staring. they would have their little chats while i sit there aside, quiet.well,i tried a few times,trying to adjust myself into their jokes.but it aint funny anymore.(they are actually kkinda lame) Anyways, i feel that jokes now(to me) are like made up of dissing or teasing people.seriously all is less funny w/o the word 'fuck'. All hail 'fuck'. But after all that talk, i still feel that i should just finish off with this performance. hate quitting.